Buat SuAmI..
When we first met, I fell in love with you. I knew right then you were the only one for me. As time goes by, our love grows stronger still. You're the most amazing man I ever knew. The place I want to be is close to you. There’s ecstasy and peace in your embrace. I know that I can cope with what life brings as long as I wake up to see your face.Thank you my treasured and cherished love. Your loving and caring have made our marriage a blissful adventure of two! Thanks Love.
bila tiada yang baik untuk diucapkan.
maka diamlah.
itu lebih baik dari bicara yang sia-sia.
sama seperti berbicara,
bila tiada yang bermanfaat dan berfaedah untuk ditulis dan dikongsikan,
maka diamkanlah jemarimu.
sepi dari catatan.
itu lebih baik daripada menulis perkara yang sia-sia.
maka diamlah.
itu lebih baik dari bicara yang sia-sia.
sama seperti berbicara,
bila tiada yang bermanfaat dan berfaedah untuk ditulis dan dikongsikan,
maka diamkanlah jemarimu.
sepi dari catatan.
itu lebih baik daripada menulis perkara yang sia-sia.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
InTERNAtIOnaL dIStUrBed PeOPLe'S DAy
Today is
International Disturbed People's Day
Please send an encouraging message to a disturbed friend... just as I've done.
I don't care if you lick windows,
take the special bus
or occasionally pee on yourself..
You hang in there sunshine, you're friggin' special.
Every sixty seconds you spend angry, upset or mad, is a full minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Today's Message of the Day is:
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.
Send to all the people you love and don't want to lose in 2008, even me.
If you get 3 back, you are a great friend.
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance.
Monday, June 23, 2008
HePPy BesDAY tO mE..;P
tHANk You To My BABy FoR da NytE wIth Me..WE WaITin ToGeTHer FoR da mOmEnTH saMbIL waTChINg hULk...hehHEHeh...Lurv U bEE...MuAaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....tHANks FoR ThE PreSEnT...
fOr All BuDDiES IN da WoRlD..thANkS fOr DA wIsHeS..;)
LuRv N MiSS aLL oF u
Birthday Date Meanings
Is your birthday day 1 of the month?
Your Life
You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something,
everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be
more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful in
life.
Your Love
You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the
person. Vise versa, people who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance
to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or
hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your ______expression. Try not to
end a relationship in a quarrel.
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Is your birthday day 2 of the month?
Your Life
You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might
happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from
the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance
for self-control problem.
Your Love
Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your
unrequited love. Your are a romantic and loyal lover.
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Is your birthday day 3 of the month?
Your Life
Although you are innocent and romantic but your ______expression often mislead
others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because of your double
personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You are
careful and patient.
Your Love
Your love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you
to light when you are in love. Your confidence
might lead you to the track your parents disagree.
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Is your birthday day 4 of the month?
Your Life
You usually think before acting which makes your life quite easy. But you
often are the one who give yourself a hard time by being paranoid. People
might not truly understand you but you are really nice to be around. You are
cheerful and friendly.
Your Love
Still water runs deep, that's what you are. You always surprise others with
your new character when you are in love. Your love trap often comes
unexpectedly and your love life is full of surprises.
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Is your birthday day 5 of the month?
Your Life
Although you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement and changes.
Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of your extreme confidence,
you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe in leading your own life, and
you have got the gift in doing so.
Your Love
Nothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once you are in
love, you feel the ownership ! of your lover. A third party can only makes
your jealousy becomes worse.
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Is your birthday day 6 of the month?
Your Life
You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people
find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others.
Your imagination is extremely unique.
Your Love
Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship.
Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness
to your couple.
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Is your birthday day 7 of the month?
Your Life
You are sensitive to changes around you but your feeling is hardly
expressed. You hate exaggerations. Under your quiet personality, you are
rather stubborn and self-centered. These qualities are the force behind your
extreme persistence.
Your Love
You have enormous courage to please your lover. Your relationship often
progress quickly.
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Is your birthday day 8 of the month?
Your Life
You have pleasant and friendly personality. People look u to your wit and
imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete what you started,
which sometimes create negative impact to people around you.
Your Love
Falling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time you are lucky. You
fascinate people with good taste but you never have enough with one.
Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts.
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Is your birthday da! y 9 of the month?
your Life
You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know
how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what
they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a
chance to learn about your pleasant personality.
Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable
but sometimes you are too fast to follow.
Your Love
You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over
and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling
of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with
children. You Will be Happy Always with u r Love Mar! raige. and she
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Is your birthday day 10 of the month?
Your Life
You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be a
renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is
near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in
implementing your imagination and share it with
others. You are always well dressed.
Your Love
You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel like
you own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your
relationship.
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Is your birthday day 11 of the month?
Your Life
You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and some
even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable. You
are remarkably kind and moral person.
Your Love
You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover will
always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy to
hand around the one you love.
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Is your birthday day 12 of the month?
Your Life
You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do
not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.
Your Love
You are willing to start off in one-sided love affairs because you strongly
believe that you will eventually win his/her heart. On the other hand, once
you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often the
fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.
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Is your birthday day 13 of the month?
Your Life
You are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around are not your
style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you to the difficult
path. Because of your sincerity, most people find you easy to be around
although you are sometimes too straightforward.
Your Love
Your gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person.
Eventhough you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are,
especially in the eyes of opposite sex.
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Is your birthday day 14 of the month?
Your Life
You are so confident that sometimes you forget about the people around you.
If you have to be in one of the two teams, you will choose to be in the
winning team. On the other hand, you are kind and caring but above all, you
care for your own benefits. Your imagination is
unique and often gets implemented shortly after it comes across.
Your Love
You will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matter how hard
he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no
getting back.
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Is your birthday day 15 of the month?Your Life
You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the
outside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is
strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you
fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your
temper shows.
Your Love
You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long. This
is why you hardly win a decent relationship.
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Is your birthday day 16 of the month?
Your Life
You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart.
Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say
about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a
dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make
your dream comes true.
Your Love
You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age
and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight
is not your style.
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Is your birthday day 17 of the month?
Your Life
You neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess with others'
life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal. You are always
in a circle of friends. You often do things in your own way that
occasionally go beyo! nd the acceptable limit. People may find you childish
and not very attractive in that sense.
Your Love
Your fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those are great.You
often find yourself trapped among a few great guys while you have to choose
only one.
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Is your birthday day 18 of the month?
Your Life
At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are
cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in
good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, n! o one would dare to be
around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find
you hard to be around.
Your Love
You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you
like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love affairs
often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity
makes you very attractive.
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Is your birthday day 19 of the month?
Your Life
You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you gain
respect fro! m others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that you
are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the wrong
path. You are a free bird and want to lead your
own life.
Your Love
You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love,
nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon after
that, you will make up in a way that surprises others.
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Is your birthday day 20 of the month?
Your Life
You are prudent, circumspect and take things seriously. Before you! make any
move, you will think of a few alternatives that might take a while. You are
patient, imaginative and target oriented. You value friendship more than
anything else.
Your Love
You usually study your partner carefully before making any move. You never
demand anything beyond the natural quality of that person. Your sincerity
doesn't bring excitement in your love life but it brings deeply grown
relationship.
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Is your birthday day 21 of the month?
Your Life
You are curious and a true follower. You can pl! ease someone so much that it
seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your disagreement
under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like while
your dream man is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under
turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy in your
heart.
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Is your birthday day 22 of the month?
Your Life
You h! ave the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you
for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn.
You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual.
Your Love
You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom
you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't
let them get away without having hard time.
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Is your birthday day 23 of the month?
Your Life
You never live your life in the way others want yo! u to. You are an
independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are ready to
face with the result of your decision. You are usually the one your friends
count on.
Your Love
Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in forbidden
love affairs. You may fall in love with a married person and no one can stop
you from making progress. You are very charming, although you might not
realize it.
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Is your birthday day 24 of the month?
Your Life
You are very optimistic and that's why you a! lways enjoy life. You are gifted
in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You'll be the first
they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out.
Your Love
Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not that you
really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can't
really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy
about you because you are remarkably charming and
romantic.
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Is your birthday day 25 of the month?
Your Life
You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You
always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will
eventually bring you success.
Your Love
You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love one
more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential
to get married young.
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Is your birthday day 26 of the month?
Your Life
You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is not the
way you choose t! o live. Travelling is your favorite hobby because excitement
is what you are after.
Your Love
You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and
goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking
around for the next one.
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Is your birthday day 27 of the month?
Your Life
You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even when
the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being to
pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a kind
loving person.
Your Love
You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may
be. You are emanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.
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Is your birthday day 28 of the month?
Your Life
You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability.
This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you
try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see
things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your
heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before
seeing any progress in love.
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! Is your birthday day 29 of the month?
Your Life
You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your
interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often feel
tired of things and people around you.
Your Love
You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into
his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights
between you and your lover.
Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination.
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Is your birthday day 30 of the month?
Your Life
You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun
to be with. Though you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but
over all, they love your qualities.
Your Love
You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to
treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal
or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly
confident which might take ages.
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Is your birthday day 31 of the month?
Your Life
Your emotion is hard to predict. You can be sad this minute and happy in the
next. People might find it difficult to follow your emotion and understand
you. You tend to take things seriously.
Your Love
You take your time to study a person before falling in love. Once you decide
that he or she is the one, no one can stop you from making progress, even
your partner.
Friday, June 20, 2008
.iM waItIn For tHe daY..;P...
hehehehe..
im happy..
alhamdulillah..aku masih idup untuk satu hari lagi...
terima kasih ya Allah..;)
pagi yang indah bagi aku hari ini...jumaat yang lapang dan tenang...after aper yang jadi malam tadi..sha sayang bee..;p
baru pas baca Yassin ngan member2 ofiz pagi nie..ader la mam pagi sket...bee pun tapau mam tuk aku arini..thanks yang...yaaa...;p about da day...can wait for midnyte..;)
naper yer??hehehehe..
only i noe...a nyte with my baby bee...
thanks sayang for being here for me..
lurv u..
hati aku lapang arini..maybe coz of last nyte..;)
eeeeeeeee..lamanyer nak malam yang..x sabar nak tungguuuuuuuuuuuuu..;p
hehehehe...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
..Grotesque Me...
Salah pilihan, atau terlanjur perbuatan. Antara kedua-duanya, dia kebuntuan di tengah, amat sukar untuk membuat ketentuan, lebih sukar daripada membuat keputusan apabila hati sudah tekad.
Jika salah pilihan, perlukah menyalahkan diri sendiri. Langkah paling mudah tanpa menuding kepada sesiapa dengan meletakkan diri sebagai punca segala-galanya; amat mudah.
Atau terlanjur perbuatan, juga kesalahan harus dipikul diri sendiri, tidak boleh membabitkan orang lain untuk dijadikan kambing hitam, melepaskan diri sendiri seolah-olah sang dayus yang mahu lepas daripada kesalahan.
Mengundur perahu yang sudah terlajak merempuh tebing. Tidak semudah yang dijangka. Ini suatu perbuatan, suatu tindakan yang sudah jelas dan pasti, lalu kenapa menjadi amat takut untuk menghadapinya.
Takut? Dia menidakkan dirinya sebagai seorang penakut yang tidak mahu berdepan dengan sebarang risiko, menjadi sang oportunis yang mahu memperoleh hasil tanpa perlu berusaha, secara mudah beroleh hasil atas kesusahan dan kepayahan orang lain.
Dalam situasi dirinya, mana mungkin ada jalan mudah dan pintas untuk menempa kejayaan dalam hidup, tidak, dia mahu memburu sesuatu dalam hidup dan melakukan sesuatu yang amat besar untuk menjadi taruhan.
Memilih untuk menukar kepercayaan semata-mata hanya tertawan dengan seorang insan bernama lelaki, yang mampu mendapat hati dan perasaan, menjadikan diri perempuan penasaran.
Bagaimana mahu menafikan segala tindakannya dengan perasaan terhadap seseorang, dan tidak mungkin dia boleh menafikan jika ia merupakan suatu kebenaran; mahu menolak kenyataan dan benar sekadar mahu terus berselindung, mahu terus mengelak beban dan tanggungjawab.
Barangkali ini kesilapan dalam hidup yang harus ditanggung beban dan kesannya untuk selama-lamanya, jika ia harus digalas bagai Sisyhpus, maka dia akan menjadi seperti legenda Greek itu, menanggung segala kesalahan tanpa penghujung.
Tiba-tiba dia mendapati dirinya menjadi seorang manusia yang menjengkelkan sesiapa sahaja, suatu pandangan dan sikap yang tidak pernah difikir sehingga suatu tahap seperti sekarang.
Sepatutnya dia mengetahui lebih awal, apatah lagi dirinya bukan orang pertama dihidangkan dengan permasalahan itu, melainkan ia pernah berlaku dan pasti berlaku lagi.
**+mY hEppy EnDiNg*+**
Yaaaaa..
lot's of lurv reader..
hehehehhe..miss u..miss ma blog..;p
heheheh....really feelin like writing now...
let's start it with assalamualaikum...;)
lama gak x menulis nie...my heppy ending??wat ending???
hahahahaha...u will noe...
before o forgot..to THOSE WHO TRYING TO CALL ME NEVER EVER TO TRY IT AGIAN OR ELSE U WILL SUFFER FOR DA REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!try me...buat la lagi ek..siap ko pasni...
there is astupid human yang x paham2 bahasa menganngu idup aku n bee...memang x paham2 la dia nie...xtau la manusia ker aper dia nie...silap besar la klau ganggu idup kitorang lagi ek..
aku ingat lagi date n aper jer cerita yang ko da buat..;p
date: 17.06.2008
jangan cube2 nak cari pasal lagi k pepuan!!da banyak kali aku kater jangan ganggu coz aku x penah nak kacau life ko tue..JADI JGN JADI MANUSIA YANG X PAHAM BAHASA ATAU BAHASA KASARNYE JGN JADI BODOH N MEMBODOHKAN DIRI SENDIRI DENGAN PERBUATAN YANG BANGSAT TO...DA TERLALUBANYAK BUKTI YANG AKU ADA NIE TUK TUNJUK PADA KO N PADA SAPER JER LA YANG X PUAS HATI DENGAN AKU...
SILAKAN BAWA TEMAN2 SEPERJUANGAN KO TU..AKU BAGI DIORANAG SEKALI TGK PERANGAI SENGAL KO NIE..;P
k..so PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZ laa jadi manusia yang ader perasaan malu tu sket..awak tu perempuan..perangai tu elok2 sket laaa..;p
lot's of lurv reader..
hehehehhe..miss u..miss ma blog..;p
heheheh....really feelin like writing now...
let's start it with assalamualaikum...;)
lama gak x menulis nie...my heppy ending??wat ending???
hahahahaha...u will noe...
before o forgot..to THOSE WHO TRYING TO CALL ME NEVER EVER TO TRY IT AGIAN OR ELSE U WILL SUFFER FOR DA REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!try me...buat la lagi ek..siap ko pasni...
there is astupid human yang x paham2 bahasa menganngu idup aku n bee...memang x paham2 la dia nie...xtau la manusia ker aper dia nie...silap besar la klau ganggu idup kitorang lagi ek..
aku ingat lagi date n aper jer cerita yang ko da buat..;p
date: 17.06.2008
jangan cube2 nak cari pasal lagi k pepuan!!da banyak kali aku kater jangan ganggu coz aku x penah nak kacau life ko tue..JADI JGN JADI MANUSIA YANG X PAHAM BAHASA ATAU BAHASA KASARNYE JGN JADI BODOH N MEMBODOHKAN DIRI SENDIRI DENGAN PERBUATAN YANG BANGSAT TO...DA TERLALUBANYAK BUKTI YANG AKU ADA NIE TUK TUNJUK PADA KO N PADA SAPER JER LA YANG X PUAS HATI DENGAN AKU...
SILAKAN BAWA TEMAN2 SEPERJUANGAN KO TU..AKU BAGI DIORANAG SEKALI TGK PERANGAI SENGAL KO NIE..;P
k..so PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZ laa jadi manusia yang ader perasaan malu tu sket..awak tu perempuan..perangai tu elok2 sket laaa..;p
Monday, June 16, 2008
oRAng-oRAng tERaSInG
Pada masa lain dia merasakan, seolah-olah sudah membuat keputusan secara matang sebagai WANITA dewasa, dan menidakkan bahawa segalanya dibuat secara tergesa-gesa tanpa sebarang pertimbangan.
Suatu pemikiran dan tanggapan yang amat bertentangan, bagaikan pertembungan antara dua kutub, saling berlawanan.
Dia menidakkan bahawa keputusannya, menafikan dengan sesungguh ia suatu kesilapan paling teruk pernah dilakukan, suatu tingkah yang lebih peduli akan emosi sendiri, hingga menghilangkan segala pertimbangan dan kewajaran.
Fikiran celaru dan keliru menjadikan seseorang mempercayai sesuatu yang lebih kepada perasaan semata-mata, sesuatu yang dirasakan sebagai benar dan betul, dirasai yakin ada, benar-benar wujud, dan sentiasa ada di mana-mana.
Kadang-kadang perasaan menjadi suatu provokasi fikiran dengan membuat pelbagai andaian dan anggapan sehingga menjadi dongeng perasaan yang menjadi benar dan betul, jika pun tidak pada hidup nyata.
“Kau terlalu banyak berfikir dan berandaian sehingga tidak boleh membezakan, yang mana satu wujud dalam fikiran dan dunia sedar. Daya fikiran kau diracuni oleh pelbagai bayangan yang seolah-olah memburu dan menjadi ancaman,” kata -kata yang tidak mampu disanggah atau dikilas.
Dia tidak pasti kata-kata itu benar atau tidak, dan dia tidak mahu mempedulikan, jika pun dia mahu menafikan, tidak bermakna penafiannya akan diterima orang lain.
Lantas penafian tidak penting, kecuali ia sekadar suatu rutin apabila berlaku sesuatu yang mungkin tidak dapat diterima, atau dianggap tidak benar, tidak menyenangkan, maka ia ditolak dengan kata-kata penafian.
Kadang-kadang dia membiarkan kata-kata mengenai dirinya, tanpa memberi ulasan dan jawapan, bahawa kata-kata itu juga ada benar, biarpun dengan prejudis dan wasangka sendiri.
Dia tidak boleh menafikan perkara itu, atau mengetepikan begitu sahaja untuk memaksa rakan2 untuk mentaati setiap butir perkataan yang meluncur dari mulutnya.
Katanya, dia tidak boleh menolak untuk membuat andaian bahawa segala yang berlaku dalam hidup juga seharusnya bermula dengan andaian yang kemudian menjadi benar dan nyata, atau diketepikan bila ia dianggap tidak benar.
Tentunya manusia yang berjaya mencipta sesuatu yang akhirnya berguna dalam hidup hidup manusia kini pun bermula dengan andaian, jika sesuatu dilakukan untuk tujuan dan keperluan tertentu, maka hasilnya akan menjadi sedemikian.
“Jangan terlalu banyak andaian, atau meletakkan andaian dan jangkaan terlalu penting hingga mempengaruhi setiap benar dan nyata dalam hidup kau,”
Kadang-kadang dalam perbualan, dia akan memerhatikan temannya, meneliti setiap perkataan, dan membuat renungan dari kata-kata itu, betapa teman serumahnya itu mempunyai kedalaman fikiran, sesuatu yang jarang diserlahkan, dan ia juga suatu yang mencetuskan kekaguman perasaan.
Teman memberitahu, hidup terlalu berharga dan singkat untuk disia-siakan dengan andaian dan jangkaan semata-mata, tanpa sesuatu yang lebih konkrit, utuh dan padu.
Kata-kata yang dia jawab dengan anggukan, ada benarnya, cuma kali ini dia tidak mahu memikirkan persoalan lain untuk menyanggah, lalu membiarkannya.
Baginya juga hidup seolah-olah diburu oleh bayang-bayang, dan lebih teruk ia sekadar bayang-bayang perasaan, menjadikan diri terlalu cemas dan mengalami segala macam halusinasi, bayang-bayang perasaan yang menggugat kewarasan.
“Kau bermaksud aku akan menjadi seorang yang sewel? Atau separuh waras?” Pertanyaan yang tidak mengundang kejutan, disambut dengan tenang, bahawa ia sekadar kemungkinan yang menjadi benar dan betul, atau berlaku sebaliknya yang jauh sekali meleset.
Dia mengakui kehidupannya kini semakin sukar dan ia bukan sekadar andaian dan jangkaan perasaan semata-mata, sedang jangkaannya dulu ia tidak seperti yang dialami dan melandanya kini. Amat jauh dari jangkaannya dulu, memang tidak pernah terjangka oleh akalnya tatkala itu, bagaimana zaman sudah berbeza dan mengubah nilai hidup.
Barangkali ini pusingan roda kehidupan, bahawa dia akan berada dalam sesuatu situasi apabila tiba seru, tanpa mampu disanggah atau ditolak, tanpa upaya dia nafikan begitu sahaja. Bukankah itu persoalan takdir yang mahu difahami dan percaya.
Jika menjangkakan begini sejak awal, fikirnya, tidak dia melakukannya, yang kemudian dihambat oleh perasaan kesal, kenapa pula dia harus memikirkan seperti itu, bukan ini soal takdir hidup, perjalanan hidup yang sudah tertulis dan dia hanya si pembaca skrip yang mengikutinya tanpa soal.
Kadang-kadang hati yang memberontak selalu teruja untuk mempersoal segala-galanya, selalu menidakkan sesuatu yang dianggap benar dan nyata, atau menyatakan suatu yang tidak wujud sebagai benar dan ada.
Bagaimana pula dia boleh meramalkan hidup masa depan, melihat bayangan perlakuan dan peristiwa dalam hidup untuk kemudian membuat rencana balas bagi mengelak takdir yang tidak menyenangkan hatinya. Sejauh itu dia berfikir, betapa dia terlalu dihambat oleh perasaan sendiri, terus berfikir yang menjadi kembara minda dan rasa.
Lalu apakah yang mahu dia pertikai dalam hidupnya, menentang sesuatu yang tidak memihak kepada dirinya, atau sekadar mengikut arus dengan laju dan perlahan yang sudah ditentukan.
Dia berada terlalu jauh daripada landasan yang sepatutnya, dia beranggapan sedemikian tatkala terjelma suatu kekhuatiran jika tanggapan dan andaiannya melebihi jangkaan, menerobos alam angan-angan semata.
Kemudian dia memikirkan hidupnya terlalu banyak kekhuatiran sehingga ia menjadi terlalu penting dan besar, mengatasi perihal lain dalam kehidupan, dan kekhuatiran itu menjadi suatu gangguan yang mengasak dan menyendat hidupnya.
“Masih ada perkara dalam hidup ini yang penting untuk kau fikirkan, daripada terus menjadi manusia yang sentiasa waspada dan khuatir apabila mempercayai pelbagai andaian”.
Dia mengaku, itulah hambatan hidupnya kini, bahawa keputusannya dulu menjadi suatu yang sentiasa memburu fikiran, seolah-olah sekarang ia menjadi amat penting dan sentiasa mencengkam hidupnya.
Kenapa tidak pernah menjangkakannya, dia kadang-kadang disoal oleh perasaannya yang mahu mempertikaikan keupayaan akalnya untuk menentukan rasional setiap fikiran dan perbuatan.
“Aku akan menghadapinya,” katanya, tidak ada yang lebih baik untuk mendapat tenang selain membebaskan diri. “Itu harga yang harus dibayar, setiap pengorbanan mesti dengan korban”.
Suatu pemikiran dan tanggapan yang amat bertentangan, bagaikan pertembungan antara dua kutub, saling berlawanan.
Dia menidakkan bahawa keputusannya, menafikan dengan sesungguh ia suatu kesilapan paling teruk pernah dilakukan, suatu tingkah yang lebih peduli akan emosi sendiri, hingga menghilangkan segala pertimbangan dan kewajaran.
Fikiran celaru dan keliru menjadikan seseorang mempercayai sesuatu yang lebih kepada perasaan semata-mata, sesuatu yang dirasakan sebagai benar dan betul, dirasai yakin ada, benar-benar wujud, dan sentiasa ada di mana-mana.
Kadang-kadang perasaan menjadi suatu provokasi fikiran dengan membuat pelbagai andaian dan anggapan sehingga menjadi dongeng perasaan yang menjadi benar dan betul, jika pun tidak pada hidup nyata.
“Kau terlalu banyak berfikir dan berandaian sehingga tidak boleh membezakan, yang mana satu wujud dalam fikiran dan dunia sedar. Daya fikiran kau diracuni oleh pelbagai bayangan yang seolah-olah memburu dan menjadi ancaman,” kata -kata yang tidak mampu disanggah atau dikilas.
Dia tidak pasti kata-kata itu benar atau tidak, dan dia tidak mahu mempedulikan, jika pun dia mahu menafikan, tidak bermakna penafiannya akan diterima orang lain.
Lantas penafian tidak penting, kecuali ia sekadar suatu rutin apabila berlaku sesuatu yang mungkin tidak dapat diterima, atau dianggap tidak benar, tidak menyenangkan, maka ia ditolak dengan kata-kata penafian.
Kadang-kadang dia membiarkan kata-kata mengenai dirinya, tanpa memberi ulasan dan jawapan, bahawa kata-kata itu juga ada benar, biarpun dengan prejudis dan wasangka sendiri.
Dia tidak boleh menafikan perkara itu, atau mengetepikan begitu sahaja untuk memaksa rakan2 untuk mentaati setiap butir perkataan yang meluncur dari mulutnya.
Katanya, dia tidak boleh menolak untuk membuat andaian bahawa segala yang berlaku dalam hidup juga seharusnya bermula dengan andaian yang kemudian menjadi benar dan nyata, atau diketepikan bila ia dianggap tidak benar.
Tentunya manusia yang berjaya mencipta sesuatu yang akhirnya berguna dalam hidup hidup manusia kini pun bermula dengan andaian, jika sesuatu dilakukan untuk tujuan dan keperluan tertentu, maka hasilnya akan menjadi sedemikian.
“Jangan terlalu banyak andaian, atau meletakkan andaian dan jangkaan terlalu penting hingga mempengaruhi setiap benar dan nyata dalam hidup kau,”
Kadang-kadang dalam perbualan, dia akan memerhatikan temannya, meneliti setiap perkataan, dan membuat renungan dari kata-kata itu, betapa teman serumahnya itu mempunyai kedalaman fikiran, sesuatu yang jarang diserlahkan, dan ia juga suatu yang mencetuskan kekaguman perasaan.
Teman memberitahu, hidup terlalu berharga dan singkat untuk disia-siakan dengan andaian dan jangkaan semata-mata, tanpa sesuatu yang lebih konkrit, utuh dan padu.
Kata-kata yang dia jawab dengan anggukan, ada benarnya, cuma kali ini dia tidak mahu memikirkan persoalan lain untuk menyanggah, lalu membiarkannya.
Baginya juga hidup seolah-olah diburu oleh bayang-bayang, dan lebih teruk ia sekadar bayang-bayang perasaan, menjadikan diri terlalu cemas dan mengalami segala macam halusinasi, bayang-bayang perasaan yang menggugat kewarasan.
“Kau bermaksud aku akan menjadi seorang yang sewel? Atau separuh waras?” Pertanyaan yang tidak mengundang kejutan, disambut dengan tenang, bahawa ia sekadar kemungkinan yang menjadi benar dan betul, atau berlaku sebaliknya yang jauh sekali meleset.
Dia mengakui kehidupannya kini semakin sukar dan ia bukan sekadar andaian dan jangkaan perasaan semata-mata, sedang jangkaannya dulu ia tidak seperti yang dialami dan melandanya kini. Amat jauh dari jangkaannya dulu, memang tidak pernah terjangka oleh akalnya tatkala itu, bagaimana zaman sudah berbeza dan mengubah nilai hidup.
Barangkali ini pusingan roda kehidupan, bahawa dia akan berada dalam sesuatu situasi apabila tiba seru, tanpa mampu disanggah atau ditolak, tanpa upaya dia nafikan begitu sahaja. Bukankah itu persoalan takdir yang mahu difahami dan percaya.
Jika menjangkakan begini sejak awal, fikirnya, tidak dia melakukannya, yang kemudian dihambat oleh perasaan kesal, kenapa pula dia harus memikirkan seperti itu, bukan ini soal takdir hidup, perjalanan hidup yang sudah tertulis dan dia hanya si pembaca skrip yang mengikutinya tanpa soal.
Kadang-kadang hati yang memberontak selalu teruja untuk mempersoal segala-galanya, selalu menidakkan sesuatu yang dianggap benar dan nyata, atau menyatakan suatu yang tidak wujud sebagai benar dan ada.
Bagaimana pula dia boleh meramalkan hidup masa depan, melihat bayangan perlakuan dan peristiwa dalam hidup untuk kemudian membuat rencana balas bagi mengelak takdir yang tidak menyenangkan hatinya. Sejauh itu dia berfikir, betapa dia terlalu dihambat oleh perasaan sendiri, terus berfikir yang menjadi kembara minda dan rasa.
Lalu apakah yang mahu dia pertikai dalam hidupnya, menentang sesuatu yang tidak memihak kepada dirinya, atau sekadar mengikut arus dengan laju dan perlahan yang sudah ditentukan.
Dia berada terlalu jauh daripada landasan yang sepatutnya, dia beranggapan sedemikian tatkala terjelma suatu kekhuatiran jika tanggapan dan andaiannya melebihi jangkaan, menerobos alam angan-angan semata.
Kemudian dia memikirkan hidupnya terlalu banyak kekhuatiran sehingga ia menjadi terlalu penting dan besar, mengatasi perihal lain dalam kehidupan, dan kekhuatiran itu menjadi suatu gangguan yang mengasak dan menyendat hidupnya.
“Masih ada perkara dalam hidup ini yang penting untuk kau fikirkan, daripada terus menjadi manusia yang sentiasa waspada dan khuatir apabila mempercayai pelbagai andaian”.
Dia mengaku, itulah hambatan hidupnya kini, bahawa keputusannya dulu menjadi suatu yang sentiasa memburu fikiran, seolah-olah sekarang ia menjadi amat penting dan sentiasa mencengkam hidupnya.
Kenapa tidak pernah menjangkakannya, dia kadang-kadang disoal oleh perasaannya yang mahu mempertikaikan keupayaan akalnya untuk menentukan rasional setiap fikiran dan perbuatan.
“Aku akan menghadapinya,” katanya, tidak ada yang lebih baik untuk mendapat tenang selain membebaskan diri. “Itu harga yang harus dibayar, setiap pengorbanan mesti dengan korban”.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
***++***bOut YeSTeRDAy***++***
salam..;p
i need to write! i think i have to write something! i gotta write! *sighs*
duh. dont tell me im suffering whatever u bloggers are suffering, u blogmaniac!well, today i came to the office with the mood : attempting suicide.
could i do dat???plzzzzzzz....
i heard somethin bout dis lil thing dat qiute mess up my mind..but at last i can handle it..everything would be just fine...;p
at last...wat u should do and MUST DO in order to be in a relationship is a trust into each other..at last it is worth it...when he say that DAT things made him think dat HE LOVES ME SO MUCH...;P
dat really means so much to me..;p..means a world to me..we can handle it...hehehehhe..coz i love him trully..medly..deeeply...;)
i need to write! i think i have to write something! i gotta write! *sighs*
duh. dont tell me im suffering whatever u bloggers are suffering, u blogmaniac!well, today i came to the office with the mood : attempting suicide.
could i do dat???plzzzzzzz....
i heard somethin bout dis lil thing dat qiute mess up my mind..but at last i can handle it..everything would be just fine...;p
at last...wat u should do and MUST DO in order to be in a relationship is a trust into each other..at last it is worth it...when he say that DAT things made him think dat HE LOVES ME SO MUCH...;P
dat really means so much to me..;p..means a world to me..we can handle it...hehehehhe..coz i love him trully..medly..deeeply...;)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
**+..a nEvER eNDiNg StORy..**+
so we meet up again readers..;)
hehehehe...since dat my boss were out it's time for me to writing..;p
it was freezing cold and could feel my bones were as stiff as the icecream stick,
so cold my office..haiyaa...xtau mana nak lari nie...otak da beku..jari jemari ku pun naik kaku da nie..;)...yaaaaa....lurv all of u out there..;)
KL is raining all da day..dari time aku dtg keje sampai la nak lik nie pun mendung lagi luar sana..but alhamdulillah, praise to Allah...im still alive...merasai keindahan Dunia CiptaanNya..Kesejukan bukan masalah padaku, aku masih bisa berdiri di bawah kebekuan ini..;)
owh ya...im coing with my dear today..pagi2 da main ujan...nasib laa x lencun bee aku masuk keje arini...sempt kuuga aku berdoa pagi td...supaay ujan x lebat sementara kami ke tempat mencari rezeki ini...alhamdulillah, ujan reda dalam perjalanan...cuma titisan embun pagi yang nyaman yang kami lalui pagi nie..;p
sejuk tapi aku hayati..keindahan...kedamaian..terbitnya matahari di balik awan mendung..pancaran yang tidak menyilaukan mata..menyakitkan telinga..;p
we thought dat kami akan lambat punch kad pagi nie..alhamdulilah sempat gak laa..merah ti punch kad babe..;)..hehehehe..
im cooking today..;p..early in da morning aku da bgn masak...for us...;)..biasa jer janji ader alas perut..aku da muak nak mam kat cafe bawah nie..so we having lunch together today..lunch dalam ujan..walau ujan, bersama dengan dia ke mana pun aku terima..;)..hahahaha
so, a very nice place we having our lunch today..aku x tau plak tpt nie sgt cantik..really got a Malaysian looking...tghari yang x panas langsung...kalau la cuti day arini...;p..bahagia nyer tido kat umah...haahhahaha..;)
thanks bee for the lunch...for our brand time together..n for da pictures taking together tadi..;p
lurv u so much....;)
Monday, June 9, 2008
..An EsCApE is JUsT da bEgINnINg...
lo and behold! alhamdullilah, now what BaL said makes sense. Pakcik does look physically attractive today! hmm..ok, get ready with the biggest bucket of BEE, we gotta paint the town glowing red! oh im happy, happy! im the happiest bunny! *hops around*
bad bad BAD me. my bad.but IF you think there's perfection in this world, the best advice i could give is : get real!
Check this out for more!
i clumsily tumbled upon recently saved excel which i think i got it from a friend of mine someday ago. happens to be some sorta birthdate fortune-teller, and to tell you what, i laughed my head off on the outcome!
* Strong-willed and highly motivated : which i think it's true especially when im in love *lol*
* Sharp thoughts : hmm, a compliment here when it's 100% true! yeah, hate me.
* Easily angered : this is so SO true when i wake up on the wrong side of bed.
* Attracts others and loves attention : not sure about this, so figure this out yourself *chuckles*
* Deep feelings : *oh scofield*
* Beautiful physically and mentally : im beautiful, it's true. at least james blunt says so.
* Firm standpoint : nonetheless,i do!
* Easily influenced : by scofield. i love IQ freaks! :D
* Needs no motivation : i do, but usually by qualms.
* Easily consoled : this thing really knows me well. im temperamental chick.
* Systematic (left brain) : i beg to differ!!
* Loves to dream : i dream a lot *oh scofield*, but not sure you got 'loves' word right.
* Strong clairvoyance : some people say it's true. ok, stop askin' me whats on Season 3!
* Understanding : thank you. im flattered. *grins*
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck : ive just been diagnosed of having neck/shoulder strain.
* Good imagination : well, thats why im here thinking all above are true.
* Good debating skills : people been commenting on this a lot. just hope it's positively attributed though.
* Good physical : so far so good, praise to Allah.
* Weak breathing : one of possible signs read on my iris. lets hope i finish this blog STILL breathing.
* Loves literature and the arts : loves de vinci code, does this ring any bell anyway?
* Loves traveling : oh, to panama for scofield. no, to spain for aimar.
* High spirited : not when im bored.
* Spendthrift : got me. not on my money though, so stop after me like im the FoxRiver con!
bad bad BAD me. my bad.but IF you think there's perfection in this world, the best advice i could give is : get real!
Check this out for more!
i clumsily tumbled upon recently saved excel which i think i got it from a friend of mine someday ago. happens to be some sorta birthdate fortune-teller, and to tell you what, i laughed my head off on the outcome!
(21st JuNe 1984)
* Strong-willed and highly motivated : which i think it's true especially when im in love *lol*
* Sharp thoughts : hmm, a compliment here when it's 100% true! yeah, hate me.
* Easily angered : this is so SO true when i wake up on the wrong side of bed.
* Attracts others and loves attention : not sure about this, so figure this out yourself *chuckles*
* Deep feelings : *oh scofield*
* Beautiful physically and mentally : im beautiful, it's true. at least james blunt says so.
* Firm standpoint : nonetheless,i do!
* Easily influenced : by scofield. i love IQ freaks! :D
* Needs no motivation : i do, but usually by qualms.
* Easily consoled : this thing really knows me well. im temperamental chick.
* Systematic (left brain) : i beg to differ!!
* Loves to dream : i dream a lot *oh scofield*, but not sure you got 'loves' word right.
* Strong clairvoyance : some people say it's true. ok, stop askin' me whats on Season 3!
* Understanding : thank you. im flattered. *grins*
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck : ive just been diagnosed of having neck/shoulder strain.
* Good imagination : well, thats why im here thinking all above are true.
* Good debating skills : people been commenting on this a lot. just hope it's positively attributed though.
* Good physical : so far so good, praise to Allah.
* Weak breathing : one of possible signs read on my iris. lets hope i finish this blog STILL breathing.
* Loves literature and the arts : loves de vinci code, does this ring any bell anyway?
* Loves traveling : oh, to panama for scofield. no, to spain for aimar.
* High spirited : not when im bored.
* Spendthrift : got me. not on my money though, so stop after me like im the FoxRiver con!
how true are yours?
Gua BikIn Ini SAjaK
Gua tahu gua tak layak..
Gua tahu gua cuma kutu berahak...tapi
Gua bikin ini sajak
Bukan kerana gua nak berlagak
Gua bikin ini sajak
Bukan kerana gua bangga bahasa rojak
Gua bikin ini sajak
Sebab ada benda gua nak cakap
Sebab ada rasa dalam dada yang tersekat
Gua bikin ini sajak
Bukan sebab gua saja nak cuba-cuba bakat
Gua bikin ini sajak
Sebab gua pun ada hak!!
Gua bikin ini sajak
sebab gua nak lu orang semua ingat
budak Syarlini dah jumpa ke tidak?
Gua syak, lu orang semua dah tak ingat
Gua bikin ini sajak
sebab harga barang naik mencanak-canak
beras dah mahal macam donat
Lain barang harga gua ingatl
u orang pun terperanjat
Gua bikin ini sajak
harga minyak dah naik tinggi sangat
lu kata, tak pe; kita masih subsidi minyak masakl
u kata, lu pulangkan balik duit pakai pos dalam kotak
lu kata, cukai jalan sudah kerat
lu ingat,otak gua tak boleh fikir berat-berat
Gua bikin ini sajak
Kadar letrik pun nak naik jugak
tak menyempat-nyempat
Gua rasa gua kutu berahak
merangkap juga seorang rakyat
dan gua rasa gua pun ada hakl
alu gua tulis ini sajak
takkan gua nak duduk aje tunggu berkat?
cuba lu jawab?
Friday, June 6, 2008
..To SiR wIth LoVe..
im in a very blessed friday...;p
pagi tadi join bacaan yassin kat office...actually tiap2 minggu pun macam tue...cuma arini istimewa coz DIA pun join sama..;)
first timer la bagi DIA...aku???x terbilang da baper kali nie ha...arini aku pakai baju kurung biru..hehehee..da macam lagu raya tu plak...hehehe..
owhhhhh...yer watkan breakfast pagi nie...tapau mam sama...;p..thanks bee....nak mam tp ader mam pagi kat opis already jadi kami makan di sini saja...tghari nak g mayang jumaat lak...hurrmmmm....
bos xder nie...meeing kat Putrajaya after jumaat td...hepi go lucky ler nie...;p...
we goin to MCD lunch time..actually aku lepak ngan ex-officemate aku...MISZ BAL...
lunch ngan dia..pas mayang baru bee dtg join kitorang sama...
1st time Bal jumper ngan dia...he's taller Bal kater....hehehehe..;p..yup..but Bal da gud things is he loves me...rite...thanks for the treat..;P..I see u there in a new place k...gonna miss u so much..;)
Saya amat tidak bersetuju dengan prejudis buta terhadap bangsa lain selain bangsa kita. Melayu terhadap Cina atau Cina kepada India atau mana-mana bangsa sahaja kepada mana-mana bangsa yang lain. Tuhan jadikan kita lain untuk berkenal-kenalan, bukan untuk bermusuh-musuhan. Tuhan juga menilai saudara atas takwa, bukan kerana saudara Arab atau Melayu.
Ini fakta daripada AlQuran, bukan cakap-cakap untuk Maulidur Rasul sahaja.
Prejudis banyak kali buat kita nampak 'kuman' di seberang laut, buta 'gajah' yang di depan mata. Salah orang dicari-cari, salah sendiri biar sembunyi, usah dibaiki
Bal...she's juz like my sister..;p..da beautiful one...;)
even we are not in a same religion..i like her from da 1st momenth i saw her..LHAG was da best place...but no so best as here with HIM..
LURV U BEE..;P
Thursday, June 5, 2008
..MinYAk..oH mInYAk...
HoT tOPiC FoR tOdaY..;P
Not only for me tapi untuk satu Malaysia babe...giler...giler...memang giler wehhhhhhhhh...
bleh nangis ini macam maaa...
Harga petrol di negara ini dinaikkan sebanyak 78 sen seliter kepada RM2.70 seliter berkuat kuasa HARI INI...wahhh..wahhhh...senangnyer hati mereks yer menaikkan harga...bagi yg senang xper..tp yang kurang kemampuan tu???x giler babe................
wut a world were are facing huh????wat to do kan...they have a rite...bukan main suke2 jer naikkan price pun..walaupun PM kater kiter masih pemegang harga terendah di Rantau Asia...;p
Thanks la PM...
WANNA HEAR A STORY???hehehehe..bout us malam tadi..minyak punyer hal..;)nasib bee aku x naik minyak jer...hahahahah..semalam laaaa...lik keje ptg to aku lik ngan bee..satu hal la jalan jammed..;p..KL kalu x jammed bukan KL laa babe kan...hahaha...
so macam biasa, lik umah laa ptg tu..kl plak ujan giler lebat ptg smalam..lagi la teruk traffic...sana sini jammed sajer...bee aper lagi...menyanyi2 laaa dia lam keta...konon2 nak ilang tension la tu...;)
aku da naik pening da ngan jammed2 nie ha..sampai kat Jalan Duta bee suggest g jalan Mid Vally jap..alang2 yer kater "kiter pun da lama x g shopping b"..;p..to la to..so we decide to go to mid la jap...jap x jap lama gak la..
g survey barang yang yer nak sangat tue ha..;p..then g li barang dapur kat Carrefour plak..naseb baik x jumper ABG NGAH cam kat TESCO DAMANSARA smalam yang...heheheh..kantoi lagi tie...;)..so then we decide laa meneruskan perjalanan lik umah plak...
budget tak nak lalu Federal laa coz jammed..rupenyer lalu dalam lagi jammed...al kisahnyer kami nak isis minyak kete..pergghhhhhhhhhh...traffic light plak rosak...bersimpang2 la kete tgh jalan nak tunjuk terror...;p..masing2 xnak kalah..sumer nak jalan dulu...aleh2 sumer sangkut tgh jalan...huh..."SUME BERENTI SAPER YANG NAK JALAN NIE'',...hehehhehe.bee....beee..;)
bee aku pun tunjuk terror la plak malam tadi...ngan selumber badak dia turun keta g JADI POLIS TRAFFIC JAP JAGA JALAN DEPAN...;P..heheheheh...sayang aku nie kalau angin mau terbalik keta2 tgh jalan tu kang..aku da cuak jer lam keta...
dipendekkan citer ngan machonyer laa bee aku nie g suwuh abg cino depan ni undur sket...mamat to pun ikutlaaa....haaaa...kan senang...sumer dpt jalan...;)..siap dapat sorakan gemuruh dari driver keta blakang lagi..."CHAYA AR BRO"..hehehehehe..denagn bangga jer muka pak cik akunie masuk keta..senyum sampai telinga...
haaa...tu baru citer kat trafiic tue..;p..so ni citer nak ke pam stesen plak kat KJ nie ha...bukan jauh pun pam ngan traffic light nie ha..supposely x sampai 10 min pun..tapi nak tau baper lama aku n bee nak sampai ke stesen?????haaaaaa...2 jam lebeh siottttttttttttt...
giler wehhh...aku ingat nak lik raya tadi...rupenyer coz minyak naik harga babe..adussssssss....tension jer..punyer laa kami duk melepak tunggu turn nak ke Petronas tue ha..tup2 teksi uncle depan kitorang rosak la plak wehhhhhhh...ya Allah...sabor jer la BEE...;P..kan???
aku rasa dalm 30 tapak langkah aku....lebih kurang 15 tapak langkah bee sampai la kitorang kat Petronas tue...hahahahah...wat a life la malam tadi bee..;)...dekat2 nak sampai...PETRONAS ABES MINYAK!!!!!!!!!!alamakkkkkkkkk...lampu minyak da kelip2 weiiiii...hehehe...
ceh bee cover tension menyanyi plak lam keta...;p..siap berborak ngan pak cik motor parking tepi jalan...;)..adus sayang...sempat to berkenalan jap..ntah saper sumer di layannyer...thanks GOD la sebelah PETRONAS sengal nie ader SHELLL...
Finally...yahhooooooooooooooooooooooo...dapt isi minyak full tank malam tadi...hehehehhee..to lah al kisahnyer minyak kaeta kami malam tadi...sekian wassalammualikum warrahmatullahhiwabarokatuh...;P
Not only for me tapi untuk satu Malaysia babe...giler...giler...memang giler wehhhhhhhhh...
bleh nangis ini macam maaa...
Harga petrol di negara ini dinaikkan sebanyak 78 sen seliter kepada RM2.70 seliter berkuat kuasa HARI INI...wahhh..wahhhh...senangnyer hati mereks yer menaikkan harga...bagi yg senang xper..tp yang kurang kemampuan tu???x giler babe................
wut a world were are facing huh????wat to do kan...they have a rite...bukan main suke2 jer naikkan price pun..walaupun PM kater kiter masih pemegang harga terendah di Rantau Asia...;p
Thanks la PM...
WANNA HEAR A STORY???hehehehe..bout us malam tadi..minyak punyer hal..;)nasib bee aku x naik minyak jer...hahahahah..semalam laaaa...lik keje ptg to aku lik ngan bee..satu hal la jalan jammed..;p..KL kalu x jammed bukan KL laa babe kan...hahaha...
so macam biasa, lik umah laa ptg tu..kl plak ujan giler lebat ptg smalam..lagi la teruk traffic...sana sini jammed sajer...bee aper lagi...menyanyi2 laaa dia lam keta...konon2 nak ilang tension la tu...;)
aku da naik pening da ngan jammed2 nie ha..sampai kat Jalan Duta bee suggest g jalan Mid Vally jap..alang2 yer kater "kiter pun da lama x g shopping b"..;p..to la to..so we decide to go to mid la jap...jap x jap lama gak la..
g survey barang yang yer nak sangat tue ha..;p..then g li barang dapur kat Carrefour plak..naseb baik x jumper ABG NGAH cam kat TESCO DAMANSARA smalam yang...heheheh..kantoi lagi tie...;)..so then we decide laa meneruskan perjalanan lik umah plak...
budget tak nak lalu Federal laa coz jammed..rupenyer lalu dalam lagi jammed...al kisahnyer kami nak isis minyak kete..pergghhhhhhhhhh...traffic light plak rosak...bersimpang2 la kete tgh jalan nak tunjuk terror...;p..masing2 xnak kalah..sumer nak jalan dulu...aleh2 sumer sangkut tgh jalan...huh..."SUME BERENTI SAPER YANG NAK JALAN NIE'',...hehehhehe.bee....beee..;)
bee aku pun tunjuk terror la plak malam tadi...ngan selumber badak dia turun keta g JADI POLIS TRAFFIC JAP JAGA JALAN DEPAN...;P..heheheheh...sayang aku nie kalau angin mau terbalik keta2 tgh jalan tu kang..aku da cuak jer lam keta...
dipendekkan citer ngan machonyer laa bee aku nie g suwuh abg cino depan ni undur sket...mamat to pun ikutlaaa....haaaa...kan senang...sumer dpt jalan...;)..siap dapat sorakan gemuruh dari driver keta blakang lagi..."CHAYA AR BRO"..hehehehehe..denagn bangga jer muka pak cik akunie masuk keta..senyum sampai telinga...
haaa...tu baru citer kat trafiic tue..;p..so ni citer nak ke pam stesen plak kat KJ nie ha...bukan jauh pun pam ngan traffic light nie ha..supposely x sampai 10 min pun..tapi nak tau baper lama aku n bee nak sampai ke stesen?????haaaaaa...2 jam lebeh siottttttttttttt...
giler wehhh...aku ingat nak lik raya tadi...rupenyer coz minyak naik harga babe..adussssssss....tension jer..punyer laa kami duk melepak tunggu turn nak ke Petronas tue ha..tup2 teksi uncle depan kitorang rosak la plak wehhhhhhh...ya Allah...sabor jer la BEE...;P..kan???
aku rasa dalm 30 tapak langkah aku....lebih kurang 15 tapak langkah bee sampai la kitorang kat Petronas tue...hahahahah...wat a life la malam tadi bee..;)...dekat2 nak sampai...PETRONAS ABES MINYAK!!!!!!!!!!alamakkkkkkkkk...lampu minyak da kelip2 weiiiii...hehehe...
ceh bee cover tension menyanyi plak lam keta...;p..siap berborak ngan pak cik motor parking tepi jalan...;)..adus sayang...sempat to berkenalan jap..ntah saper sumer di layannyer...thanks GOD la sebelah PETRONAS sengal nie ader SHELLL...
Finally...yahhooooooooooooooooooooooo...dapt isi minyak full tank malam tadi...hehehehhee..to lah al kisahnyer minyak kaeta kami malam tadi...sekian wassalammualikum warrahmatullahhiwabarokatuh...;P
My HeaRT sIngINg THis sOnG fOr HIm..;p
gU dAn BeI baN qIu
Yong wo de wan an pei ni Chi zhao fan
Ji de ba xiang nian Cun jin pu man
Wo wang zhe man tain xing zai shan
Ting niu lang dui zhi nv shuo yao yong gan
Bie pa wo men zai di qiu de liang duan
Kan wo de wen hou Qi zhe mo tan
Fei Yong guang su fei dao Ni mian qian
Yao ni neng kan dao shi zi xing you bei ji xing zuo ban
Shao le wo de shou bei dang zhen tou Ni xi bu xi guan
Ni de wang yuan jing wang bu dao wo bei ban qiu de gu dan
Tai ping yang de chao shui gen zhe di qiu lai hui xuan zhuan
Wo hui nai xin de deng Sui shi huan ying ni kao an
Shao le wo de huai bao dang nuan lu Ni xi bu xi guan
E gei ni zhao pian kan bu dao wo bei ban qiu de gu dan
Shi jie zai da liang ke zhen xin jiu neng Hu xiang qu nuan
Xiang nian bu hui tou lan Wo de meng tong tong gei ni bao guan
LonElY nOrtHeN hEmISpHerE
My "good-night" accompanies you eating breakfast
Remember to completely store all your memories
I look at the entire sky of shining stars
And hear the cow herder telling the weaver girl to be brave
Don't be afraid of us being in two different places on this world
See, my greetings are riding on a magic carpet
Flying to your presence with the speed of light I
want you to be able to see the Southern Cross has
Polaris to accompany it
Lacking my arm as a pillow, are you used to this?
Your telescope can't see the loneliness of my northern hemisphere T
he Pacific Ocean's tides whirl to and fro with the planet
I will patiently wait, welcoming you the shore at any time
Lacking my embrace as a warm stove, are you used to this?
In the e-mailed pictures, you can't see the loneliness of my northern hemisphere
If the world were even bigger, our two hearts could still mutually warm each other
Our longing won't be lazy; for you, I'll take care of all my dreams
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
..nAk Lik UmaH da..;)
hehehehee...yeah..yeah..nak kul 5 da....:)
nak lik umah da...kat luar tue da gelap giler nie..kl is goin to face a heavy navy rain..
oooooohhhh....i lurv when it was raining...
naseb baek arini lik ngan bee..;p...like he said.."x kena ujan la sayang.,bukan kiter naik moto arini"...hehehehhe..;p...ye ar bee...arinin lunch sama...bz bee arini..wat per yang??5S ek...hahahahah..cian yer...
he's facing a new way of life today..dapat kawan baru lagi...partner x datang ek arini..;p..u dont be like dat...k lar...nak lik da...
see u at basement sayang..parking ticket da bayar da tadi tau..;p
lurv u..
see ya tomorrow pals...;p
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
OnCe UpOn A tImE..;P
What an entry i had yaa..;)..*laugh....im laughing babe...im so happy today..as usual actually...when my baby is all around me..he kind a late taoday..oh God im so worried..it just a second day bee...
never ever make it again dear..hurrmmmm...wat should i say...there he goes my baby..a big baby bee actually..;p..anyhow anywise, i lurv the way he is..;)
yesterday was a great day for us..having a lunch together in an heavy rain..swear to God i wont forget that day...bee bawak payung dalam hujan???ehhhh yer ker nie yang...so sweet of u sayang...;)..hehehhehe...he's so damn gorgeous babe...
never ever make it again dear..hurrmmmm...wat should i say...there he goes my baby..a big baby bee actually..;p..anyhow anywise, i lurv the way he is..;)
yesterday was a great day for us..having a lunch together in an heavy rain..swear to God i wont forget that day...bee bawak payung dalam hujan???ehhhh yer ker nie yang...so sweet of u sayang...;)..hehehhehe...he's so damn gorgeous babe...
lik keje bee tunggu kat kl sentral..having appoinment with me plak...hehehehe..we juz had a walk together to our favorite places ever...having a cup of tea...when the weather is going to rain at any time..;p
walking together...holding each others hand...can i had these for the rest of my life bee????plz say yes baby...;p...how we misss each other so much...
*sniffs* ok girls, i have few things coming then, have to go now. of course the next entry will be with pictures. dunno how far that can be haha! until then, he's my precious. remember!
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Monday, June 2, 2008
TOdaY is jUsT da bEgInnINg..
JunE 2, 2008...
TODAY IS JUST A BEGINNING FOR OUR NEW LIFE..A NEW ENTRY FOR ME AN BEE HOPEFULLY..UNDER DA GUARDIAN OF aLLAH FOR BOTH OF US..;)
we gonna make it dear even through da rain..;p.."like my favorite song"..hehehehe..alhamdulillah things goin rite..having lunch together today..hearing his story...new beginning bee..as we wish it to be..
it really feels good when what you've hoped for has finally come, the long wait has ended, and to summate the effect, it's an arise from the dead. im relief at the fact that whatever bad is gonna be put to an end soon and a new life is awaiting in a crow flies distance. it's sooner than i thought. im just glad through and through.
it's just 4.30 pm, and i already miss my baby! cant wait to go back home and give him the tightest hugs and wettest smooches all over! i feel that im losing something already. he's like my left arm, im incapacitated! she's my soul, my strength, my love. my heart skips a beat whenever he awaysicks or unhappy. i hope i could always be there when he needs me and to watch him grow and live his life. he just matters the world to me. he's just too smartl to understand how important he is, so with this blog i hope when one day he reads, he knows how much he means to me, how thankful i am to Allah for giving me happiness through him. alhamdulillah.
*exhales* so long. i feel like im typing a short drama. i know i shouldnt have written this long, but heck. it's my blog i choose what and when to write :p
ironically. i consider myself to be lucky-appointed by God to be able to 'majestically' get out this way, unlike others who are left here on screen not to be able to make success of their plan, but to seek the hikmah of what just happened.anyways anywise, today is undoubtly a day to remember. a new beginning of my life. a significant mark of my next journey.
for my lil shah eskanda..
i lurv u..
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SwEEt POiSoN fRoM bEE.;P
thanks sayang..
for da ''hadiah''..;p..mekaseh bee...im shock...sangat terkejut for da prezent..expensive sangat ler bee..tapi cantik...sangat cantik...lama da kite survey kan??
Mr GsHoCk & MeIZ BAby G
hehehehe..so nice white color yang...;p..teruja n ner bee..x sangka la bee nie tau...;)..thanks walau awal lagi ek yang nak bufday...hehehehe.lurv u eskanda...budak nakal @ my sweet smiling eyes..
adik ngan angah jelez tau tgk bee...hahahah..;p
thank sayang..
miss him..really do..;)
lots of lurv from me..
27.04.2008
mR.Shah eSkaNDA - SeMpuRna FoR mEiz sHAfINEe
Kau begitu sempurna
Di setiap langkahku ku kan
Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Kau adalah darahku
Kau genggam tanganku saat diriku lemah dan terjatuhk au bisikkan dan hapus semua sesalku
Kau adalah darahku
for da ''hadiah''..;p..mekaseh bee...im shock...sangat terkejut for da prezent..expensive sangat ler bee..tapi cantik...sangat cantik...lama da kite survey kan??
Mr GsHoCk & MeIZ BAby G
hehehehe..so nice white color yang...;p..teruja n ner bee..x sangka la bee nie tau...;)..thanks walau awal lagi ek yang nak bufday...hehehehe.lurv u eskanda...budak nakal @ my sweet smiling eyes..
adik ngan angah jelez tau tgk bee...hahahah..;p
thank sayang..
miss him..really do..;)
lots of lurv from me..
27.04.2008
mR.Shah eSkaNDA - SeMpuRna FoR mEiz sHAfINEe
Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu memujamu
Di setiap langkahku ku kan
selalu memikirkan dirimuTak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu
Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adlah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna
Kau genggam tanganku saat diriku lemah dan terjatuhk au bisikkan dan hapus semua sesalku
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna
Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna.. sempurna.. sempurna..
Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna.. sempurna.. sempurna..
..LAkE gaRDeN vIeW..
Last saturday aku lepak LAKE GARDEN...g tgk rusa..;p..hehehehhe..plan nak g jogging tup2 g lepaking jer...aper nak watttt...relaease tension lepak2 tempat macam nie...x semak pale kan...bukan kena bayar gak pun..;p
bee pick up at unicity lrt then terus g sana..having great breakfast together under a big tree..hehehhe..kitorang memang suker makan bawah pokok nie..xtau naper..ader AURA kot..;)
lama gak aku kat sana..dari pagi ti tghari coz after tHAt my best2 buddy in da world dtg lepak umah jap...nak jena lik masak lunch nie..;)..lama x lepak ngan bebudak nie ha..;p..yaaaaa...they will convo this weekend..ConGRatS babE..;P
bee pick up at unicity lrt then terus g sana..having great breakfast together under a big tree..hehehhe..kitorang memang suker makan bawah pokok nie..xtau naper..ader AURA kot..;)
lama gak aku kat sana..dari pagi ti tghari coz after tHAt my best2 buddy in da world dtg lepak umah jap...nak jena lik masak lunch nie..;)..lama x lepak ngan bebudak nie ha..;p..yaaaaa...they will convo this weekend..ConGRatS babE..;P
so girlies, i will let you go for now before the genius comes with another piece of art. you know time for me is always precious so i'll keep my next entires short. you do write to me and puhleez, update me more often of things happening on the side of your earth. miss you all! *sobs*
tHanKS FoR taKe Me thErE..banYAK KAli DA g SEbEnaRNya...;P
niCe ViEW But PIc sUMer LAM LApTop LAr..;)
..My WeeKeNd..
Date: 1 June 2008
a tiring week for me..;p..but it's a pleasure when you can see a smile on other faces..;)..hehehehe..its my kazen wedding and da best part is...im da "pengapit pengantin" ler..hahahahha..it's not my wedding k...;p..mine??a couple couple of year lagi...;p..hey, its still early for me to get married ok..;)...best jer tgk orang kawen ek..to my frenz though...'heppy newly wed sayang''..sorry cannot attend your wedding dear...
sweet purple chosen by the bride..;p..so sweet n simple but nice..it is a pleasure biler dpat lepak dengan kazen2 yang berbulan2 x nampak even a year pun ader...jumper la dua pupu...sepupu laaa..kupu2 pun ader gak..hehehe
thanks baby pik me up kat selayang tue..my dear is coming too..;p..lik dari kampung smalam...terus singgah sana..then g dinner jap ngan dia..;)...really miss him so much..
mucho much...
a few picture during da wedding for your view..;p
that was part of my weekend story. please note that it is only a day in my weekend. ive got another 2 days to drag you into. *laughs*
in lurv..cant wait for our time..;P
oUr LOvElY daY tOgEThEr..;p
first of all...
thanks yang pick me up yesterday..straight away from melaka ya bee..;p
i lurv u...thanks again yang..
im on leave today..for my dear actually..;p..many things to be done today bee..before the big events la sayang..cant wait to be together...seeing you always..ur smile that relief me...;)..again...again...n againz...
after a full check up, things had done..so time for us again..;p..before bee lik kampung back...hehehehe..miss my mama and aiman kat kampung...he gonna handle a big event there this week..>p..
so, having lunch together in Shah Alam though...settle thing down here...weather is gud...lurv is great otherwise i wont be here with him in a first place dont i...;)then g jalan2 tgk ikan jap..bought somethin for my lil cutie hammy at home..thanks bee..;p
lepak seri muda jap tghari then back to kl...;p..take my "baju kebaya" for da ceremony this weekend..;p..when will our momenth ek bee??hope everything will be juz fine yang..;p
i went home by lrt coz i dont want my baby to take me home..its goin to be rain..drive carefully sayang...;p..u got another 2 hour journey bee..
lurv u eskanda...;)
OuR vAcaTioNz..
Venue: Tiara Beach Resort, Port Dickson
Date: 25th – 27 May 2008
Yaaaa..;p
Date: 25th – 27 May 2008
Yaaaa..;p
ThANkS BABy FoR A vERy Cool VACAtioN eVer..Pd HerE we Go AgaiN..aNYwaY, foT thE bOth Of US onlY AgaiN..heEHHEhehE..LuRv U babY..lUrv DA sCeNerY…LuRV tHe Sand…lUrv ThE BeAcH..I LuRv DA sMeLL Of tHe oCeaN dEAr..;)
KEWL ha wHeN u WERe ON bOraD aGAin TOgEthER wIth Ur LOvE..;P..we AriVed THerE qUITe EArlT I THinK..sINcE thE Sun Was hOt..HAHhahhA..AbSolUtElY My dEAR WonT manDi MANda LA cOz PaNAs GilER babe…So we sPeNDiNG TimE eating And ViEW da OceAn…
NIcESt AiR..;P..wAhhh Ti kiTER g LAgi K Bee…MAybE nOt Pd NexT TimE..raMAI GAk FAmilI yang dTg LepAk..iTs a sChOOL hOLIdaY THoUGH..;)..iTs TiMe fOr vAcaTioN rITe…
TEmPAt WE lEPak qUItE A nice PLAcES..AiR bIrU bAbE..JANgan JeLez..;P…paNtaI yang caNtIK…aNGin yang sePOi2 Jer MeNyapA tUbUH…pERgHHHH ayAT…HEHehehE…YAAaA mEMaNG bESt Pun TanPA aNAsIr2 lUAr YANg MemeninGkan KepALA..
FoR a MomEnTH we BoTH fEEl RElIeF..;P.Da JoUrNeY was fUn…The FooD Is OK la Bee Kan..SIap bERSAntaI makaN tEpi LAut LAgi..WiTH All The SALaD, cOKe N oRANgE juice is BettER rItE babY..;P
MAyBe WE caN Go FoR a SnOrKLinG NexT TimE..bUt DEfinEteLy Not Here LA..;p
again..Thanks saying TAkinG Us THerE aGAin..;)..ThanKS fOr DA JouRnEy And SCeNerY..lUrV u..
NeWlY bOrN eIZkaNDA LiL laDy..;p
this is how i describe myself..
1. a person who lives upon idealistic values, trying to comprehend the complexity and the intrinsic values of life.
2. a person who always believe on omen and destiny..even though provoked by the conceptual idea of idiosyncratic societal demand.
3. a person who believe on not adhering to the majority of masses and crave for intellectual recognition.
4. a person who is always in a state of intriguing curiousity which intertwined with the answer that life provides.
5. a person who value the meaning of friendship and trust but most often disappointed with the expectation it favors for.
6. a person who is most often outcasted by her beliefs that a person should not be treated indifferently due to cultural norms.
7. a person who has a short fuse lately and rather impatient with pessimists.
8. the rest..you tell me because i'm all ears for criticisms =)
p.s: i love the beutiful and awesome ppl in OM114 and BM112
and i love my universe!
fOr All ViEwEr'S: "when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces-bridget jone's diary."
fOr All ViEwEr'S: "when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces-bridget jone's diary."
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